We were so cool with our American Girl dolls and our side pony tails.
We made so many promises long dissolved into the bright red sugar tumblers.
We played war with cards and polished with nails.
You wont see me with a manicure this side of life ever again.
Some where a long the spectrum a switch went off inside of me,
I don't think I've worn high heels since I was nine.
I don't judge!
Now you have an American helpless kicking you in the ribs.
Now you have a house.
Presumably with windows.
I just like to see it in word formation.
There's no subtext.
I swear on my pinky you precious lipstick secret.
When you crawl through tunnels under Massachusetts
with someone every summer away for the most of under fifteen,
It becomes rather noteworthy,
rather down the spout of those ricola contraptions,
rather something to stop for,
and count to three completely before accelerating for.
It's an extra breath on the yoga mat tomorrow.
I promise never to compare.
I promise always to be different.
Not that I ever noticed you were only half of me or anything,
I never cared that my dad wasn't your grandpa.
Or that my brother's have never met you.
I swear none of this ever mattered or married or carried away the way you hugged me that night.
Or helped me with science.
Sometimes my arms got tired holding it all up,
but I also should have eaten something other then the clear Pepsi your father,
kept locked up under the sink.
I have to give a poetry presentation in one of my lit classes.
I wish I could just play pearl jam and describe your hands,
how even though the hard parts lacquered pink sparkles,
the sand from the box still pours from the tips now peeking through blazers and cuffs linked
to eggs without shells
in the heat
Skin and Toast and Lunch Money